Captivated by Bailey Tessa & Dangerfield Eve

Author:Bailey, Tessa & Dangerfield, Eve
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fiction
Publisher: Dangerbailey
Published: 2018-06-10T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 11

Autumn stood in the sweltering locker room, trying to peel her leggings down her thighs. The tight material wasn’t going willingly and it didn’t help that her skin was slick and her hands were shaking. She and Blake were finally going to have sex. The truth of that fact had her vibrating beneath her skin, inside her bones. She tried to control her breathing, savor the anticipation, but all she wanted was for the show to start. She pulled her panties down her legs and her skin prickled with goosebumps. She was excited, too goddamn excited.

It’s just fucking, she reminded herself. What are you so worked up about?

A memory rose; being fifteen years old, her parents away for the weekend. She’d read the Wikipedia entries for abduction movies and gotten so turned on she’d saturated her underwear. Then she’d gone to the shed, taken a length of her dad’s orange multipurpose rope and tied her own wrists together. In the face of this overwhelming fantasy, her usual teenage fumblings had honed on one thing—being owned. A farmer, broad and faceless, found her trespassing on his land. He tied her up and kept her in his stable like an animal, coming outside to use her whenever the need arose in him.

Autumn had already known what she liked at that age, but the farmer fantasy had been more vivid than any she’d dreamt up before. It came to life behind her eyes, allowing her to feel the scratch of the rope, the farmer’s rough hands on her hips. Alone in her bed, she’d given into the fantasy, slipped inside it like a thread through a needle’s eye, but afterward, she’d been so ashamed she’d burned the rope, vowing to never think such gross things ever again. It was wrong to want what other girls had no choice but to endure. It meant she wasn’t good, wasn’t smart, wasn’t the kid her parents needed her to be.

Twenty-six-year-old Autumn met her gaze in the dusty locker room mirror and saw her teenage fears reborn. I’m wrong. I’m broken. I shouldn’t be allowed to do this. Anyone who would want to do this is wrong, too. It’ll hurt. Blake will hurt me and then he’ll think I’m disgusting.

In that moment, panic seemed imminent. Then she remembered how she’d felt punching the bag, purging frustrations she hadn’t even known were rising in her; Ian’s message, her mother’s unrelenting demands to come home, the growing feeling that her life wasn’t hers, that she’d let everyone else decide for her. She’d hit harder and harder, and while it hadn’t given her any solutions, it had felt so fucking good. Blake had given her that. And now, if she let him, he would give her more. He would give her a fantasy turned flesh. Real fear and real satisfaction. The question was, was she ready?

Autumn turned and looked at soft pink marks imbedded in her shoulders. Souvenirs from the mat Blake had pinned her on. She replayed the

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